Easter Extravaganza

Happy Easter Everyone :) Here's what I did:

Frank got home wednesday night so he came and stayed with me to take me home on thursday. Naturally we hung out on thursday. I missed him so muchhh.

Friday Emily Grazia and I went to Beachwood Mall to pick up her prom dress from Cache. That butthead, she told me she was picking me up at 11:30. I texted her at 11 to make sure we were still going, she says she's coming at noon. Ten to noon I get a call that says she's coming at 12:30. Then at 12:15 she says she'll be over in twenty minutes. (Keep in mind that she lives almost exactly 5 minutes away). Over half an hour later I call her to find out where she is and she says she's just now leaving the house. After we got some lunch in the food court, picked up her dress and grabbed a sweater from Guess, we ran into Emily Robie, my Pennsylvannian friend from Kent who I adore. Now I'm sure you're wondering why a girl from PA would be shopping in Ohio. So was I. But she stopped on her way back to Erie after her parents picked her up from Kent.

After the mall I had Emily drop me off at Frank's. His mom is a sweetheart and invited me to stay for dinner after he and I went to go see Water for Elephants at 4:00.  I loved it!! Such a cute movie. Except I hated when he was beating the poor elephant. Frank was laughing at me, but I'm just an animal lover, no matter how big the monster is :) On our way home, he asked if I would come over for a little. He had that smirk on that he gets when he's up to something though, so I was nervous. I called Mom since she freaks out when she doesn't hear from me in a while and told her what I was up to. After dinner at the Zitko household, Frank's mom pulls out a little chocolate cake and they all sang happy birthday to me. Sooooo sweet. His dad even grabbed the accordian from the other room and played happy birthday for me while they sang. I loved it. Then he gave me my birthday present, Season 2 Volume 1 of Glee and Indians tickets :) After that he came over my house to color easter eggs and after we hung out in the basement.

Saturday we had my mom's side over for "Easter Eve". Frank came too and brought over a bag from his family with peanut M&Ms and a Starbucks Gift card. Officially love his family even more. Saturday also happened to be our 6 month anniversary (insert awwww here). He and I helped Mom with the asparagus and after dinner he helped me do the dishes. He's great. Dad noticed and is starting to take a liking to Frank. He's rubbing off on me in a pretty good way :) We just hung out with family for the rest of the night and then later my cousin, her boyfriend, Stanley, Nick Zele, Frank and I went downstairs to watch Dexter. I fell asleep on him for a little, but he didn't mind. I was soooo comfortable in his arms laying on his chest. I know its cliche, but he and I really do fit together perfectly like puzzle pieces. When we went out to his car when it was time for him to leave, he pulled out my anniversary gift: a neckless with a heart and key charm. I refuse to take it off because I love it so much.  I'm sad though because the gift I ordered for him isn't ready yet.

On Easter I went to mass with my family at St. Anselm. We got there right as mass was starting and had to stand. That sucked. My friend Cassie and her sister Chelsea walked in right after us because they parked the car while their parents got seats, but then they couldn't find them so they stood with us. I ran into Christina Monaco and her family as well as Emily Nice. It was nice seeing them, especially the Monaco family. They were like my second family growing up but once Christina and I went to different high schools we didn't really see each other much. After mass we headed over to Grandma Krulc's house at noon. Frank showed up a little after because he was visiting his Grandma after mass at St. Vitus. We ate there and hung out for a while before going to his Aunt Cathy's house. His cousin just got the cutest puppy!! He was adorable. We had dinner there and then went down into the basement/Josh's room and watched tv and talked. It was actually a lot of fun. I alredy knew his cousins Josh, Matt, Aimee, and Lindsay so it wasn't awkward at all. Frank and I both kept taking turns nodding off though while we were watching tv. We both were exhausted. After that we went back to my house and watched movies on Netflix all night and spent his last night home together. I hate when he leaves. It hasn't gotten any easier. I still tear up a little watching him walk to the car and drive away.

Today Mom and Matthew brought me back to school. I skipped all my classes cause I didn't feel like going. We had lunch at Rosie's and then just hung out in my room. I packed up almost everything in my room and sent it home with Mom. It doesn't feel any emptier in here though, just in the closet. I have a lot of stuff going on this week, but then all I have to do is take two finals on Monday and I'm home free! Checking out of my room on Tuesday will be a breeze and then I'm officially on summer vacation. Now all I need to work on is getting some summer weather here in Ohio and getting the perfect summer job.

haha, that was a long one

Fingers Crossed :)

Birthday Weekend and More

I went home this weekend to spend my birthday with my family, bringing along two friends: Emily and Heather. We had such a good time just chilling. Saturday was so much fun, spending all day at the mall and exploring the new Forever 21 that they put in the Beachwood mall. I love it! My friend Kristina works there, and I'm thinking of applying for over the summer. Employees only get a 10% discount, so I wouldn't be tempted to buy clothes all the time (maybeee ;]) My best friend Emily Grazia came over and we ended up going to Walmart to buy ice cream cake. Lemme tell you, this girl is nuts. I love her.

We all headed over to mass for Palm Sunday, then to Bob Evans for breakfast. After that we ran home, changed, and headed out to the Indians game. Grady Sizemore was back for his first game this season from being injured last season. At his second at bat he knocked one over the fence for a homer in his returning game. Emily and Heather, both being from Pennsylvania, now have a new found love for baseball after seeing pictures of Grady. He is now the background on both of their phones, and on Emily's laptop. I'm just excited that the Indians are finally getting some respect. I love going to games and I have always loved watching them on tv.

We headed back sunday night because people needed to schedule classes. It was kind of bitter sweet. Watching all of them stress about scheduling and here's me not worrying because I'm transfering. I'm gonna miss some of the people here, but I'm not gonna miss this place. Its too close to home. I wanna meet new people and really learn to take care of myself; to grow up.

Now I am slowly sending stuff home and packing things up. Theres no need for it all to be sitting here and then when its time to move back home to try to jam it all in the car. Plus, I've brought more stuff back with me since I moved in, so I better start making room now. Kelsey is doing the same. I only have the rest of this week, plus one more week of classes, then finals. I have two on that monday and one on friday, so I'm probably moving home on Tuesday, unless Mom decides to come pick me up Monday night.

I'm excited for SUMMER, and everything that comes with it. Like having my boyfriend home instead of 8 hours away. Plus, Kent gets out way before OSU and OSU goes back wayyy after Kent. So I'll have an extra long summer. Just gotta hear back with my offical acceptance letter.

Fingers Crossed :)

Fish Fry

Part of my job at the catering center is working the fish frys. I came home this weekend since my birthday is on sunday and I brought Emily and Heather with me, so Mom and Dad took us out to the fish fry. It made me realize how much I love my job. I love the people I work with, we're all one big family. Like every family we have our issues, but we manage to stay close. Everyone knew my birthday was coming up so they all gave me hugs, wished me happy birthday, but then bugged me about why I wasn't working. I miss working all the time and swaping stories with the girls. Can't wait to go back over the summer :)

Fingers Crossed :)

Wonderful Weather

Oh my gosh the weather yesterday was WONDERFUL. I only had class until noon, so I got lunch with a few friends and then Emily, Heather, and myself took a blanket outside to go lay in the sun and do some homework. Needless to say, we didn't get much homework done. We were out there for a long time before heading inside to put our stuff away and go rent some bikes to ride around campus. Let me say, I've never felt so dumb riding a bike. They only had three left. With Emily only 4'11 and me at 5'2, we're not tall people. Heather was blessed with a little height at about 5'5. Her bike was perfect size for her, but mine and Emily's? HAHA. I had to stand next to a post or a sign or something to steady myself before getting on the bike and poor Emily did too. I definitely had the largest bike but once I got on I loved riding it. We rode around with Heather until she had to go to class and then Emily and I did a lap through campus and took the bikes back. Fun riding them, but too much work getting on and off when we had to stop and whatnot. After that we just took the blanket back outside and tried to take a nap. I love being outside. At home I used to just sit on the deck with mounds of tanning lotion on my legs and read. Being a softball player put me outside all the time too. Later on when the sun started to go away Kelsey, Katie and I had the bright idea of playing volleyball on the sand court right outside our dorm. The sand felt like snow. It was so cold. We were only out there for a while before starting to head inside. Our friend Jordan stopped us and we played a little on the basketball court. I miss being outside so much. This summer at the times I'm not working, I plan on living outside.

Fingers Crossed :)

Gleek



Sometimes I have dreams that I get cast as a new character on Glee. AHHH!! That would be amazing. Here's how the dream goes:

It starts out with me learning about a contest that Glee is holding. What you have to do is write a character into the show, and perform a monologue and a song that you think that character would sing. I write a character who is a foster kid. She's supposed to live with her foster parents but they never notice that she's gone, and half the time she sleeps outside the school. She befriends one of the janitors and they  let her in the school early to shower in the locker rooms. She pretty much lives on her own outside the school. She gets caught on school property after hours and is given two choices: detention after school for 3 weeks or join an extra curricular. She chooses Glee Club. Rachel is on a tangent about costumes and wants everyone to pitch in $50 to get better ones. My character refuses and Rachel storms off into the hallway. My character follows her and explains her situation to her. This is where the monologue comes in. She says things like "You think its easy for everyone to come up with that kind of money? Not all of us have dads who spoil us and give us everything we want. Rachel, I don't even have a dad. I'm a foster child. I have NOTHING. Everyday life isn't 'easy' for me." Then she starts singing "Its a Hard Knock Life" from Annie.

Well I perform all that in my audition and they say that I was the 332nd entry and the 20th audition of the day, but that they didn't want to look any further because they loved my character. I scream and then BAMM, I wake up.

A girl can dream right? I would give anything to have a voice like Lea Michele. I wish I would have done more theatre stuff when I was younger.

Lastly, I cannot wait for the new glee to air on the 19th. So excited :) Its gonna be a good one!

Fingers Crossed

Friend or Foe?

Have you ever wondered if someone is trying to be your friend because it benefits them? Theres the saying "Keep your friends close but your enemies closer". Am I some one's enemy? Why the extra friendliness all of sudden? If its because you just really wanna be my friend, awesome! But if its because you're worried that I might compromise your relationship with my best friend, then fuck you. If you don't like me, you don't like me. You can't like everyone. But don't act like my friend because you feel like you have to be in the middle of me and my best friend cause you think I'm gonna take him away.

Maybe I'm just overreacting. Maybe she really is sincere and says what she means. I've gone out of my way to reassure her that there is nothing going on nor will anything ever go on, so has he. Maybe she's finally getting it.

Or maybe I'm just being sucked in. Until I figure it out, my guard is up.

Fingers Crossed.

Skipping Class

I need to stop skipping class. I woke up on time today, took a shower, but then sat down in my computer chair waiting for my hair to dry a little and decided that I just didn't feel like going. Oh well. Theres only a few weeks left, then its goodbye Kent and hello Ohio State :)

Insecurities

It KILLS me how insecure people are these days.  I hate that I can't even have a conversation with my best friend without people freaking out thinking that he and I are in love with each other. First of all, we're both in relationships. I am completely in love with Frank and don't plan on changing that. Excuse me, he's your boyfriend woman! He's yours, you have him. Stop being so insecure! I'm not acting any different towards him than I have before, and I'm not trying take him away from you. No I don't have feelings for him anymore, so get that our of your head. You won, he's yours; Not that there was any competition, because I don't want him that way. So stop causing stupid fights with him when you could just be happy spending time together.

UGH. Rant.

Took Momma Shopping

Mom took me back to Kent this morning and because I have so much money left on my meal plan, I took Mom shopping at Rosie's. We spent $92, which isn't a big deal. I told Mom to grab a case of Smart Water to take home. She about freaked after the guy rang it up and she saw what the price was. I look at it as if I don't spend the money, I lose it. So we might as well splurge for the good stuff, right?



Work

I came home for the weekend from Kent (much needed). Today  I had a doctors appointment this morning to get some blood work done because I'm a hypochondriac and think I have all these problems. The only thing though is that I hate needles. I can sew and all that, those are fine. But when I need to get a vaccine or have blood drawn, my body has these weird reactions. It all started my freshman year of high school when I fainted in front of the elevator leaving the doctor's office after getting my meningitis shot. Since then I get really sick and/or almost pass out every time a needle pierces my skin at the doctor's. Whatever, call me a baby, say its an excuse. I don't care. I know what happens. Today actually wasn't as bad as it usually is; I was surprised.

Mom and I went shopping after for a little. She bought me a new pair of heels and some new work shoes since mine looked horrible and got thrown out. Then we rushed through the grocery store. I bought the new Cosmo. So excited to read that.

Then I went back to work at Pine Ridge for the fish fry at 3:30. Honestly, I actually miss working. Its not a hard job, I get to talk to people all night long, and I get paid to eat good food :) My manager, who also doubles as a server sometimes, asked me to cover her serving shift tomorrow, so I'm excited to get some hours in. I really like earning money on my own, especially since I have to pay for school and I borrow money from my parents all the time.

Nick Zele came over tonight and we watched Hot Tub Time Machine. It was funny at some parts, but overall its not something I would watch again. Good idea, bad plot. Especially the fact that the time travel is done through a hot tub.

Now I'm skyping with Frank, the love of my life. He's being a baby cause he hit his head and has a huge mark on his forehead. He is trying to say what I'm writing, and he's actually right about most of it, but I'd never tell him. And if he ends up reading this, oh well. I keep confusing him so it works. I should probably actually talk to him though instead of letting him listen to me pound away on the keyboard.

Boys

The Britney Spears song says it all. The last line of the song says "Can't live with 'em, can't live without 'em". Why do we put ourselves through it all? And how is it that the ones who make us feel our best are the ones who can put us at our worst?

The past week of my relationship has been filled with arguments and disagreements over stupid things. I've been in a long distance relationship for almost six months now, and until now hasn't been extremely difficult. We talked all day long via text or calling, and skype almost every night. But now, its getting harder than ever and its causing us to argue.

I'm lucky in the fact that he graduates this year and will be home for good towards the end of May, and he'll be home visiting for Easter. I just hate that he'll be so far away for those last weeks. I have no clue what to do, because I feel like I won't be happy until he comes home for good.

Kid at Heart

I am NOT artistic. I come up with good ideas and have visions of what it will look like in my head, but I do NOT have the artistic ability to actually finish the actual product. I love making signs for people with markers though. I love the way my handwriting looks when I use markers. Weird, I know. Whatever. I even do it on the envelopes that I send out sometimes. Actually, its usually just Frank's. His roommate probably thinks I'm a little kid cause I color on the envelope like a little kid. Maybe that's just part of the reason why I wanna teach kids, cause I'm still a kid at heart.

RIP Phone Charger

Well its official, my phone charger which has been giving me trouble for the past few days has officially died. My phone battery is also dead and no one is around to let me borrow their charger. I feel disconnected without my blackberry on, even though I have my laptop. Thank God for that.



Good Morning

Lately I've realized that I feel A LOT better after my cup of coffee in the morning.
Coffee + muffin = breakfast. Probably gonna make this an everyday thing.

Kent Campus Coffee Shop: Jazzman's Cafe and Bakery

YUMMM

Go Cleveland!!

YESSS!! THE CAVS BEAT MIAMI :)

Dear Lebron James,

You can suck Cleveland's dick.

Love, Believeland.

The Cleveland Cavaliers have the best fans in the NBA.

Ohh, and screw you Lebron.

Pristavsko Taborjenje

This is what I live for. These three girls, this camp, being slovenian. I love it. I miss it, and them. I need summer now. I want Camp Pristava so bad. More importantly, I need my girls. Holly, Adi, Kati... ljubim te. I don't know what I'd do without you guys.



TOMS



I had heard of these shoes before, but a girl in my communications class talked about them again today in her speech. For every pair sold, the company donates a brand new pair of shoes to a child in need. They're actually pretty cute and said to be extremely comfortable. A girl that I talked to when going on a tour at Kent said that she loves hers because they're so comfortable to walk in. Comfy shoes = a MUST for college students.

TOMS Shoes  << check it out!

Tuesdays

Tuesdays are my easy days. Two classes back to back and then I'm done for the day. 9:55 to 11:55 and then the rest of the day to myself. I can't decide if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I LOVE having my whole day to do whatever I want, but thats just the thing. If I have too much time on my hands I don't get much done. Consider this: I have a speech due on thursday. I could work on it today and get it over with, but I'll probably stay up late tomorrow night and do it, which will suck because I have class ALL DAY tomorrow. I can't focus unless I have pressure. Thats when I get my best work done.

Instead of working on our project, Sarah and I made signs and slid them under people's doors. hahaha, it was a blast.

Currently watching Fame on netflix, its a remake though.

Kent Stand It Here Anymore

Today is my first day back from spring break and let me tell you... All I really want right now is to go back home. At first I loved Kent State. But now I feel like its all just full of drama. I was so excited to graduate from high school to get away from all of that, but now its here too. The worst part is: NONE OF IT IS MINE, but I still hear about it all day long because my group of friends can't seem to get along with each other. And on top of that, my living situation for next semester is soooo screwed up.

Since I've been at Kent I've made lots of friends. For starters there's the roomie, Kelsey. We get a long really well and I loved living with her this semester. Then theres Katie, Kristina, Emily, and Kristen that all live on my floor. Kirsten lives upstairs and Kate and Caitlyn live in Centennials. Then the boys: Zach, Alec, Kyle, Josh, Jordan E, Jordan P (Arnold), and Tre. We all got along really well until recently. Idk what happened. Well, actually I do but thats a lot to type out and I could be here for days.

Classes have been going well I guess. For the most part I don't hate it here. I used to love it, but I think that's just because I loved being on my own. I'm thinking about changing my major from Early Childhood Education to Special Education and I am seriously considering transfering to Ohio State. I love it down there. It was my first choice as a school but I didn't go because Early Childhood was at a regional campus in Mansfield (boooooo). Starting to get everything together and transfer. I feel like it will be good for me. I need something new. I really can't see myself here for four years. I'd kill myself. It will suck though not seeing Kelsey, Emily, and Katie every day. The three of us have gotten really close and I love them to death. They'll just have to come down and visit me all the time.

Theres nothing to do here on campus on the weekends. Sure theres frat parties and stuff but none of my friends ever really wanna go. The parties are fun, but they're not that great here. I usually end up watching movies in my room or we all just hang out in the lounge complaining about our lives.

Frank and I have been great :) I love him so much. We've been together now for five months and he's the biggest sweetheart ever. I can't imagine what I'd do without him. No matter what he can always put a smile on my face and make me feel better. He is my everything: my boyfriend, my best friend, my rock. He graduates this semester and I can't wait to have him home in Ohio. Milwaukee was wayyyyy too far. He's looking at graduate school, possibly Akron. Thats only 15 minutes from Kent, but 2 hours away from Ohio State. Either way, its wayyy better than the 7 hour drive. Can't wait to see him for Easter. 24 days :) Its the best feeling in the world when I can just fall asleep in his arms. I feel so comfortable with him and so safe. He still gives me butterflies when he kisses me and I get goosebumps everytime he touches me. I can't remember a time before we started talking when someone made me this happy. I love him so much.

I finally got to see Paul over break, too bad it had to be when he had surgery. What a butthead. His girlfriend Becca and I went out to lunch while he was getting worked on so that we could finally meet. She's pretty cool and I'm really glad we get along. The next day I went and sat with him and watched basketball. Brought over Jamocha shakes from Arby's, he loved it. I missed him. After everything that he and I went through and overcame, I'm glad that we're as close as we are. I love him to death and know that he will always be one of my best friends.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR SUMMER. I have so many plans but I doubt everything will work out. I need a job, badly. And with everything I wanna do, theres no way I'll be able to take off as much as I want to. Mom wants me to get a 9-5 job. Ick. I really want a job at a daycare center because I love kids and it would be such a blast. There's one in Mentor that I sort of have an "in" with and I'm really hoping to get the job cause its nice and close. We'll see. Frank and I wanna spend the summer together doing all these crazy things. He wants to go back up to Milwaukee for the Dave Matthew's concert, which would be so much fun. We wanna take a ride up to NYC. I'm going on vacation with the family. Camp Pristava. Theres just not enough time in the summer. Although, if I transfer to Ohio State, my summer will be much longer because I would get out from Kent the first week of May and then go to OSU in September. We'll see though. I really need to work.

I'm gonna try to post at least once a day. A bunch of random thoughts, pictures, tips... idk. This is all about my life, my thoughts, and my feelings. I'm thinking diary/collage/notepad type blog.. hmm.

Until next time,
Kat

Fingers Crossed?

Optimism is key. I am always doing things with my fingers crossed because I want to do my best and hope that everything comes out the way I planned. Its a proven fact that optimists have more friends because they are generally happier people. Sure, pessimists are either right or pleasantly surprised when they're wrong, but its good for the soul to be positive. Positive people attract positive things.

This blog is called With Fingers Crossed because I hope for the best with everything I do.

--Kat